Party Hardy

The other day I was in an unhappy place- but I'm much better now :)

Yesterday was my last day of doing PBT's- so naturally after I took my last one I went over to BJ-M's place and we got our party on.  All my friends came- and it was a blast...what I remember of it haha.

Basically I started drinking at 2 in the afternoon- the boys pegged me to be passed out by 6 PM but I told them I could make it until 9!  I killed a 5th of Captains, a 4 shot white russian, a 6 pack of beer, and a couple games of beer pong...and I made it past 9- hell, I made it to 3 AM!!! How? I have no clue- however I am told that I took a 45 minute power nap haha.

I'm just so glad to be done with the whole thing.  Now I have to make it through Friday then off to Canada I go to party it up for a girls night!

I can't wait!

Sooo Tired.

Oh man.  I'm at work, and it's pointless.  You see, my job entails me to 'check students in' at the dorms at night.  Well, tonight they have me working a door for the sole purpose of telling the people that come to said door to go around to a different door.  Not to mention they have another girl working the same door as me.  I don't think it takes two people to tell students to go to a different door.

Needless to say, I'm sooo tired, and it is freezing-fucking-cold in Michigan, which makes me MORE tired.  By freezing, I mean, like, -5 degrees outside.

Tomorrow, aside from going to my one class, the only other time I plan on leaving my warm and toasty apartment is to- A. go to a callback audition, and B.  Come to work... again :(  BOOOOO.

Let me just say that Saturday is going to be dedicated to sleeping...ALL DAY LONG.

The one other thing I really hope doesn't happen, is I hope to god that I don't have to go and do a PBT in the morning.  How much would that suck to wake up and have to go out in -4 degree weather (with a windchill making it -25 degrees) to go blow- when, clearly, I'm not drinking.

I'm so relieve that in 4 days the whole blowing shit will be OVER!!!!

Until then, I must try to stay alive at work- NO SLEEPING, EB!!!

A Day in the Life

Well I am obviously back to work, since normally I wouldn't be posting at 1:30 AM when I have a 10:20 class in the morning.

Today I've got a lot done.

It was the first day of classes, so in addition to attending all of them I started up my fight for the Michigan filming incentive.  I must say it's going well.  The facebook group really picked up, my article got published in my Universities newspaper, and I've been in contact with a number of other newspapers in Michigan.  The work is not even close to being done though.

In happier, lighter, younger news, I'm off probation, in officially, 6 Days 7 hours and 20 minutes.  YAY!  Since this day happens to fall on MLK jr. Day, my friend BJ-M is throwing me a 'MLK-Danielle is off Probo Day' Party.

Should be fun, however I don't plan on remembering it ;)

I had started this semester off with 17 credits.  Then I decided to drop a class, and go down to 14 credits.  However, today I just found out that BJ-M is in the class I just dropped, so now I need to try to get back in it because, well, how could I turn down the opportunity to have that much fun in a class with BJ-M?!

I'm so tired.  Only an hour and 50 minutes until I'm done!!

Whoa!

Wow! All of the sudden I feel stressed and classes haven't even started yet! Here's what's going on:

1. I'm off probation in 8 days- yup a week from tomorrow, I'll be free!!!

2. I'm starting a state-wide, student coalition to save the Michigan Filming Incentive which is going to be taking up a LOT of my time, effort, and energy, but it's all for a good cause!

3. Classes start tomorrow- I'm signed up for 17 credits... I think I'm going to be dropping a class.

4. I love my friends. This break has been amazing all due to people like BJ-M, FA, NNBoy, Lauren, Beth, Tricia, Roomies A-B-and C, and CS.

Things To Look Forward To

-Wings game

-The holidays

-Winter break in general

-Pistons game (?)

-New Years

-New classes

-January 19th

-January 29th

-London/Paris in the spring

-April 14th

Some Early Resolutions

Alright, I know it's a little early for this- but I have some I need to put out there right now to ensure a quality year next year.

Speaking of, it would seem that every year brings new challenges.  Last year was the 'Year of Sick'.  This year was the 'Year of Cops'.  Lets hope that next year will be the 'Year of Steamy Romance'.

Alright- now for these resolutions:

1. Get on top of school-

Study study study!  All 4.0s!

2. Stop talking to Ex-Boy.

It's getting ridiculous this coming and going act I keep putting myself through.  I need to cut that shit out for good.

3. Start being more forward with what I want with certain people 

(FA to be specific, if he's still around by then).

4. Get on top of my probation-

I have had too many close calls for my liking, whether it be forgetting to set an alarm, or drinking too much, even if I do stop before 10:30 pm.

5. Money management!

So self explanatory

Obsession.

Due to the fact that I'm working tonight, and I feel as though it will be a long one, I'm going to blog.

Here I go:

I'm gonna try something new, which will probably help focus my writing a bit more, which, we can all admit, I could use a little help with that from time to time.  One Minute Writer so kindly offers prompts to write about.  Today's is 'What bad habit would you like to change?'

If I could change any of my bad habits the one I most likely would change would have to be how I obsess about things.  I'm going to try my hardest to not make myself sound like a crazy person here, but I tend to get overly stressed about things, leading to a bit of obsession.  It varies from situation to situation, but whenever something upsets me, or something leaves me uneasy, I focus way too much on it, which, in turn, causes even more stress.

I'm very aware of this little quirk I posses, and I will admit, it's one of my biggest vices.  I often find myself pleading with my brain to stop focusing on the small stuff and just relax; think about something else.  It's nearly impossible.  I mean, you read my blog.  You all can tell, I'm sure, how much I do this. Whether it was about Matt from the very very early blogging days (I believe there were at least 20 posts dedicated to that little situation), or if it's about my recent jail experience, which, after it happened, I believe I wrote about it for 2 or 3 weeks.

I also do this when it comes to boys.  No, that is too light a way to put it;  especially when it comes to boys- there, that's better.  I swear, it's not in a creepy way, but more in a 'this is so annoying I can't stop thinking about him' kind of way.  I can even go as far to say that I blame everything with Ex-Boy that happened after the relationship on it.  If it weren't for this stupid little habit, he wouldn't have been in my head so much, and I wouldn't have been so tempted to keep going back, even 6 months later.

Will it ever go away?  Perhaps with time.  If it doesn't go away, will I learn to just count it as background music to my twisted life?  Lets hope so.

Until then, I'm going to go obsess more about Twilight, and the fact that the movie comes out in 3-4 days, depending on where you live.  Get excited!

Probation.

So, incase you started reading after I wrote about my legal issues, I'll do a little recap.  I was drinking at a football game and got caught by the popo.

Well, I went to court last week, on Wednesday.

For one, let me just say how stupid the state of Michigan is because they're like one of maybe 5 states that has these things called MIPs.  In every other state, if you are caught drinking underage you get a ticket very  similar to a moving violation or parking ticket.  Here, it's considered a misdemeanor, and goes on your record.

The court offered me a  deal (if you can even call it that) in which I complete probation and then my record is wiped  clean.

Can I just tell you all how inconvenient probation is?

It consists of me waking up every morning at 5 AM, and calling a phone number.  If my group number is stated on their little recording thing they have going, then I have to go in between 8 and 9 AM and do a PBT, you might know it as 'blowing'.  

If that's not inconvenient enough, on weekends and holidays, when the court house isn't open, I have to go to the police station that's connected to the court house and actually pay 6 dollars to blow, whereas during the week, in the SAME building, mind you, it costs nothing.

There went 12 bucks this weekend, considering these "random" PBTS were all one after another Halloween weekend- real random.

I don't consider blowing Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, "random".  I would call that continuous, or repetitive.

In addition to doing this little routine everyday for the next 3 months, I also have to take an online test.

Let me just say, As of January 29- I'm going to be getting pretty shitty.