Music is my Heroin

Could you ever date someone who didn't like, or listen to, music?

I'm not sure that I could. Although I've gotten behind on keeping up with the latest jams, I still am so passionately in love with all the music I listen to, that I can't imagine someone not listening to it.

For me, music is healing. When I break up with someone, or something doesn't go my way, I turn to it to console me, to help me get through it.

I don't know what I would have done had I not had Bonnie Somerville's 'Winding Road' to get me through my break up with the Ex-Boy. What would I have turned to had I never discover how great Death Cab for Cutie is while walking through campus in the fall?

How is it that I can have a crush on someone who doesn't listen to music, or, dare I say it, doesn't even like music.

Music gets me through my day, and helps me fall asleep at night.

Can you really be compatible with someone who doesn't share, or care to share, a passion with you that you've carried inside of you forever?

Emotional Mothers, Un-home-like Visits Home, And Lonely Texting

Does anyone else's mom get ridiculously emotional at complete random?

My mom and I are talking about how Penny will be recovered in a couple weeks and then she'll come to State. I also mentioned how in the spring I'll help her find a good puppy and then Penny will have a friend on the occasional weekends that I come home. All of the sudden my mother started to burst into tears. "I'm just going to miss her so sooo much," she bawled. Seriously? If you didn't know, my parent's house is only an hour from my University. It's no big deal.

Moms are crazy. For real.

I can't wait to get back to my apartment. Luckily I'm only staying another night here.

Speaking of sleeping at my parent's house, I found it really difficult last night to sleep in my bed and feel at home. I know that's weird since I did live here for 18 years, but it just doesn't seem like home anymore. Needless to say, I ended up passing out on the couch to one of my all time favorite movies, Closer, only waking up to a couple texts in the wee hours of the morning.

Does anyone else experience this? I would call it drunk texting, but I don't think that's necessarily the words I'm looking for. I think I'm these people's lonely textee. As in when it's late at night and they're all alone and bored, I'm the one they turn to to fill that void- but only between the hours of 1:30 and 4 AM. Oh, and of course only on weekends when there isn't a home football game, as in most people go home and there are less parties to attend.

Anyways, more to come on those texts at a later date.

P.S.

In addition to the 'Fucker' post. I found out shortly after he told me we couldn't be friends anymore, that he married his alcoholic girlfriend. I'm talking about two 26 year-olds, who both live with their parents. One of them works as a waiter while the other sits on her ass drinking with money from the other. Yeah, I got a little drunk and texted him. I told him we aren't friends anymore, have a good fucking life. His reply? 'Okie dokie, thanks you too," with another text saying, "If it makes you feel any better, no one came to the ceremony, it was at the court house...". It took me a while to realize what he meant by that. Then I was just sitting there, and it hit me. He married her. It makes so much more sense as to why he wanted to end the friendship. I just can't believe he wouldn't tell me. How long ago was it? When did it happen? It honestly, really does hurt. We were really good friends. All that bullshit he told my mom, how I'm one of his close friends, and one that he wouldn't want to lose. How I'm such a great person..all bullshit? It just leaves so many unanswered questions. It's saddening... having your heart broken, by the first person you ever loved.



I don't think I could handle seeing him. I think i'd want to kill him.