I miss our friendship.

"Avalanche" by: Ryan Adams

I found your photograph in a cardboard box in a magazine
I can't remember you, remember us or anything
I taught you how to feel, but you just feel numb
They taught you how to feel, but you just feel numb

She comes apart in the avalanche
Fades out like a dance
Crawls back into bed
When it's over
When it's over
When it's over
And it's over

I watch the window and listen for the sound of cars
I can't remember the last time that it was yours
I taught you how to feel, why do you feel numb
They taught us how to feel, but we just feel numb

She falls apart in the avalanche
Fades out like a dance
Crawls back into bed
When it's over
When it's over
When it's over
When it's over

She falls apart in the avalanche
Fades out like a dance
Crawls back into bed
When it's over
And it's over
When it's over



This time of the year makes me miss life before college. I miss hoping for a snow day, or roughing out the roads in the good old West Bloomfield/Walled Lake. I miss acting like a child with my friends, having snow fights, and having no one to miss. That's it. I miss having no one to miss. Truth is- I'd give anything to take back a lot of things. It's really sad, looking back, what happened. Everyone made mistakes. It's unfortunate that those mistakes led us to where we are. At least to where I am. It's the holidays that make you realize, even when you're surrounded by as many people as there are in the world, you'll still feel completely alone. I still haven't come to terms with that yet. The worst part, you'd think that since you've been alone each year, it would just get easier, because you'd get used to it. The truth is, you never get used to it. If anything, it gets harder each year. Everything is a reminder of your seclusion, the music, the people around you, the presents, everything. From now on, maybe I should just hibernate during the holidays- that way, i'd sleep through that lonely feeling I get.

That song..describes the exact feelings I feel right now. You may not understand it..but it makes perfect sense.